Nutmeg That awkward moment when because everything.

The funny thing is that I don’t even want you. This realization in itself may eliminate the need for it. But without the realization, the illogical fervor resumes. Paradox shmeradox. 

I was so worried about what you would say that I didn’t think about what I would ask. I realized I wanted nothing but company and to say I knew you- knew you well. But I can’t let my walls down so why would you? This is all very foolish, I’m aware, and yes I thought this stage was well past. 

You fed me the hooks now fed me the line and I’ll sink. 

I find myself doubting, then not caring, then doubting again. Get ahold of yourself! Drink tequila and be free of this self contained self absorbed drama that only you see. 

Maybe writing this will help. 

to look back on this and laugh, preferably within the next 5 minutes. 

interesting stories are here now and I’ll never have anything interesting to say ever again.

I stole hotwheels cars from my pre school, because I was too nervous to ask my parents to buy them for me. I thought they wouldn’t because girls are supposed to like barbies.